last week there were some issues that were unattended to. I decided to confront the demons that supported the devils. We were faced with some confronting relationship issues that involved commitment to the cause, motivation and pro-activity in our sexuality. fear was a contributing factor and assumptions were high. after the issues were raised and discussed in a light fashion both parties began grieving and slipped into a pattern that has existed for many years.
many years of self awareness also has taught us that this time is wasted. she began to talk. I began to listen. I listened for 5 hours straight, with a few murmurs in the dark to let her know I was still listening, and taking it all in. It was her story. It was a special story, a story of pain and joy of deep emotion and of deep love and deep self loathing. there were many items that both shocked and amused me. after what seems to be five minutes, there was a new person evolved. we were both new people. we both laughed and we both cried. we found an intimacy that could only be found that night through complete selflessness.
as we both reeled from the shock of being so close to another human again, we came closer, and closer until we became one. we made wet wet hard hard love for hours into the day. we power napped and began again. we swapped control positions, we honored each others positions and we allowed each other to be in control. we shared our power. we went to the cafe for breakfast just before closing, then went home and began again.
sometimes, something changes, every time.
